Will 2014 bring me Joy?

Hello Family, Friends, and All my Kidney Peeps,

I’m not really sure if anyone is reading my blog these days. Honestly, it’s not like I’ve been writing or sharing all the craziness which would be my life. I haven’t been really in the mood to revel all the events that have happened the past few months but I told myself that writing usually helps me heal and deal.

Last July Keeshan (my other half) finally was able to buy a new car. He was driving his deceased mother’s vehicle for quite sometime. In a way selling the old car released him from the link he had with her. They didn’t have a really good relationship so to me it was his way of letting go. It really was a joyous moment for me to see him get the reward he longed for. That moment of peace and contentment only lasted for one month.

It was September 9th and I had an interview for a seasonal position at Wine Country Gift Baskets. I worked there for two seasons per kidney failure. I decided it would be a good time to try again. I mean I wasn’t really doing anything and thought it would be nice to be able to buy presents this year. The interview went well although I didn’t get the position because of availability. YES, folks dialysis does take over your life and BOY is it demanding. I skipped my treatment on Monday in order to be able to attend the interview. The following day, which was a Tuesday is my normal off day but I had to do my treatment that day. I didn’t mind since I was going to get to drive Jean Grey (that’s the name of Keeshan’s brand new car) to treatment and run my errands afterwards. Jean Grey made you want to drive her. She was a beautiful black stallion, powerful and smooth. Her engine purred. Jean’s sunroof allowed me to feel that great Southern California sun that I rarely get to appreciate these days. For those out there that don’t know, dialysis takes most of my energy. At times going outside and feeling the wind and sun hurt, however, that day I felt good. I knew I would be in the car and even for just a moment I felt freedom. I felt normal. . It really was a good day. car

Then, the unthinkable happened… I crashed her! I blacked out behind the wheel and hit a park car. There was a man inside probably waiting for his child since there was a school across the street. The impact of Jean hitting his car pushed his vehicle to hit the car in front of him. His car was totaled! I was unable to get his name but I knew he was rushed to USC Medical Center. I couldn’t understand what happened. I’ve driven many times to treatment. I’ve been on dialysis for three years now. I felt fine when I left the dialysis center. What went wrong? What happened differently that day that caused this accident. That single event opened Pandora’s box for things to come that I wasn’t ready for. photo 2

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Posted by on 01/24/2014 in inner thoughts


Kidney Walk

Kidney Walk

The time has come again for ALL of you to show support to those that have KIDNEY FAILURE. Please join my cause.


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Posted by on 09/02/2013 in Get Active



Mother’s Day 2013

Mother’s Day 2013

I initially thought to have this blog focus only on Kidney Disease. As time went on, I realized there is more to my life than my illness. I can not by say my world is surrounded by doctors,appointments, diet, medications, needles and the constant of worry. But every once in a while I am reminded that I Am still Amy.

Today, my kids took the time to surprise me with homemade cards(which I Love). Reading their words brought me back to a place that I have longed for…. Feeling normal.


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Posted by on 05/13/2013 in Family Talk, Inspiration


Thankful: My Wish for you

Lately, I’ve seen the power of Prayer and how it really does affect my life.  Being a dialysis patient, it is hard to feel thankful for your life. However, if you just take a moment to see how lucky you are the difficulty of dialysis won’t feel so hard.  Believe me friends, it takes a lot of energy for me to wake up and put a smile on my face.  I have days where I just want to give up and stop treatment but there is always that voice in my ear that tells me “not yet, hold on a little longer” and I don’t have a choice but to hold on.

Allow me to be that little voice in your ear telling you, “not yet, hold on, and have faith that all will be okay”.  Make this Thanksgiving a day for celebration because through all your adversity YOU are still here fighting but most of all LIVING.


Your Wounded Healer,

Amy Tagum



Posted by on 11/19/2012 in Inspiration



Today is my birthday…Hooray!! Being a kidney patient everyday is a gift but a birthday that’s really something to celebrate.  My posting today isn’t going to be a reflection of the past year… no sir.  This posting will about everything I am thankful for.. so here goes.

1. Shout out to my Doctors (all five of them-different specialties of course) Thank you for being tough and sensitive.

2. My nurses are the best in the business! My Social Worker-Sandy for your support and My Sandy S for teachng me how to eat and giving my encouragement!

3. The technicans for making my dialysis treatments easy and for making me laugh all the time.

4. My drivers who take me to and from dialysis.. you guys always keep me safe.

5. My friends who don’t treat me different because of my illness. I appreciate that!!

6. My other half,my Clyde to my Bonnie,and the best part of me Keeshan…Thank you for staying up with me when I’m having a bad night.  Thank you for reminding me to take my medicine.  Thank you for holding me when I’m too weak to walk and rubbing my back when I’m in pain.  You’re the best!

7. My brother.. there isn’t enough space for all the words I want to say about you. You stuck with me during my darkest moments. Said the words I needed to hear and encouraged me when I felt the world on my shoulders.  I love you like a fat kid loves cake!!

8. Mom and Dad….your prayers and support are one of the reasons I am here today.  Mom, your words gave me strength and your love has pushed me through.  God picked wisly when he put us together.  Dad, thank you for teaching me to be tough.  Your life lessons have helped me endure all the challenges that have come my way.

9. God… I have questioned and you’ve answered. I may not have liked you answers at times but you never gave up on me.  You have given me the “right” people to help me carry my cross.  How Great You Are!!

That being said, THANK YOU for reading this post…Have a blessed Sunday everyone!

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Posted by on 04/15/2012 in Inspiration


It’s 2012….How you been???

I’ve been out of the loop for quite sometime…my bad.  It’s a brand NEW YEAR which mean I  have much to share with all of you. Sooooo, let’s start by saying I’m back,ready to answer questions and of course ready to ask ALL for your thoughts. Let’s get to know each other again or should I say allow me to RE-INTRODUCE MYSELF…. stay tuned folks!!!!!


Posted by on 01/06/2012 in Inspiration


New Outlook

Hello Beautiful People,

It’s been quite sometime since I’ve blogged.  I can’t say I haven’t thought of writing but I haven’t been in the right frame of mind.  It’s been a rollercoaster and I haven’t liked riding it. 

Sooooo, here I am starting new and hopefully refreshed.  I have lots to write, so many updates, and thoughts I need to get out of my head. But first thing first, I need to say how much  I HEART each and everyone in this photo (my Moni isn’t on here but I heart her too). I realize without them I wouldn’t be here.  I wouldn’t have the motivation to wake up, eat,laugh, LIVE!! For that I am truly thankful…

Until next time,

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Posted by on 06/17/2011 in Inspiration